SCREW MY LIFE!

25 n 26 was a fun day.
it was special, different and sum wad awkward.
ok i've not much to say,
lets be straight,

i know u were drunk tat nite,
u said a few things tat got me thinking,
its rlly not comforting at all,
i've got lots to think rite now,
so far ntg has lighten down.
i wnna apologize to everyone i've hurt~
dont say its ntg coz i've learnt tat it is sumthing~!
I'll be at rp tmrw,
trust me i dont wanna see anyone of u there~
i want time alone to think~

*i shouldn't have been there*

Labels: so far the guilt is on me.

what is wrong wif u?
skipping school n stuffs just bcos u feel bad for me?
tats not u lah.
r u trying to prove sumthing to me?
r u trying to show sumthing indirectly?
u made me suffer n now ure torturing me deeper..
what is it tat u want?
urgh~! WHY ARE U DOING ALL THIS?!
WHAT MORE DO U WANT?!

You got lots to think of at the moment,
don't put me 1st on the list aite,
u can always count on me if u nid me,
but pls no emo stuffs from u,
tats totally not u,
stop wrrying bout me coz im still alive~
yes im hurt, yes im sad,
but trust me, i can handle much more den wad i've taken.
just dont add on..
pls settle ure matters 1st den attend to me,
coz its getting worst.
ure a smart lady, u should noe better~

Labels: hope u read this

i nid to have fun more b4 i go..
ure presence is not making anyting much better,
n plus ure bombardment, it made the scenario worst!
wads even worst is u not talking when u plan to talk.
i feel foolish, sad, dissapointed, not needed and guilty.
wads ure point?
n u have the guts to say we'll talk when march comes?
haiz..
u say ure tired,
well im srry for making u tired,
srry if i was a burden to u..
srry if i ask too much..
srry for 060109.

Labels: i nid to smile

its gonna be akward now.
its been 3 weeks now, n the pain is still there.
its confusing in every single angle,
i dont rlly get it at this moment,
i nid sumthing to help me clear this picture out.
i feel so much different,
i feel uneasy yet at peace,
im totally depressed yet i cant cry,

its gonna be akward now.
im not gonna be myself for the moment,
i'll just concentrate on dancing,
plss stand by me when im at my worst.

Labels: thorns in my heart

I Have Decided~
I Have Chosen You~

Labels: You Think?

life is nvr simple,
its nvr too hard either,
theres always sumone to guide u along,
problem is who's tat sumone?
well, my sumone was special,
my sumone made time for me for the whole 2 wks,
its no crewmate, its no girlfrend, its sumone close.
if u rdrs thing its wrong for me to be this way wif sumone,
den im truly srry,
Well, to this sumone, thank you very very much~!
i dare not say i have feelings for u~
well neither do i dare to say i dont have any too~

im gg to brunei tmrw,
the people i miss are no where near me,
all i hear/see are words,
srry if its too much to ask,
but if u people noe me, i crave for ure attention~
say wad u may, coz yes! i am an attention seeker~
i cant hide tat~
I cant do much now..
bye~

Labels: DSFwfjfafaWEFQWEFjw~~~

looks like some people are too bz for me now a days,
well check this out,
going to be bz from this sat onwords,
so yeah, mum cancelled the bfdae party thingy, srry guys~
im gg to work,
next monday im gg brunei on a work trip for 2weeks.
i cant join the comp bcos of stupid work!
srry if i dissapoint some people wif this but i cant do much..
ouh yah heres the latest scoop on my life,
doctors say tat my lung is in no good condition to do long activities,
if not my lifw will cut short,
mum is very2 or might i say too concern at the moment.
after 6yrs of brking, i now have to lie to mum so tat i can go brk..
lol! ouh ya life suck~! bye2!

Labels: i needed u badly but its ok~

Heart Broken In Many2 Ways~
Ouch~
Ouch~
Ouch~
Needing You Very2 Bad~

Labels: shtfu people~

i use to think tat im a speacial person,
sumone different,
sumone important,
but i don feel its tat way anymore,
but nvm, lifes full of ups n downs? rite? hah~

ok bout the chingay pty,
im glad tat this party was created,
i as able to see the all races in the hip-hop industry cyphering in one circle,
i believe its the 1st?
well i got my rounds pretty much..
battlled a few dancers,poppers n bboys,
the party wasnt all tat,
it got me tired though,
i was forced to battle a few people alone~ -_-"
well it was n okay day for me,

actually, i rather spend time wif my baby,
but shes a bz person u noe~
im bz too,only on the weekdays,
stupid work~!
i wanna go out wif my baby again~~!
well i cant force her..hahaha sounds cruel n fresh but, hahaha!
its like "OI GO OUT IF ME LAH!"
lolness!

Labels: the urge to be wif u keeps getting strongger