i've been sick for a couple days now,
my right arm is usless coz it's stuck,
my left foot suck coz its injured,
my heart is numb, nuff said.

farah,
u talk to me like as if theres ntg going on,
u hide wad u wanna show,
u say things tat dosent show ure srs,
why do u hide ure emotion when u know its pointless?
just so u know,
u have a loving sis tat updates me bout u,
i keep hearing bad stuffs,
and the cause is me.
i know tat, to u, theres ntg i can do to make it all better at this moment,
but it makes me wrry every single day,
yes, i do still think of u, you've been my bestie for 4 yrs,
y stop there?
if wad u want is for me to feel the guilt,
yes i feel it now~
if wad u want is for me not to be happy,
yes im not happy~
if wad u want is for me to dissapear,
yes i will~
if wad u want is for me to cry,
ive cried everynite n i still do~
now ure avoiding me,
dont ask how i noe coz sumhow i keep track.
i noe im being selfish,
i noe im being unapreciative,
i noe im being a jerk,
i noe im being sumone u tot i wont be,
i noe im being childish,
i noe im being all cocky,
i noe.
i wish i could make it up to u in other ways,
but it seems like ure hating me,
dont say "no", coz i noe how u feel,
srry if i acused u of not being srs,
srry if i said u were too bz for me,
srry if i acused u for not caring for me,
srry for not understanding,
srry for those moments when im not there,
srry for not being the guy u tot i am,
srry for the pressure i've put on you,
srry for the hard times i've given u,
srry for being a burden to u,
srry is just a word from me to u, n i noe u cant accept it.
i want u to stay strong,
i want u to smile,
i want u to be ureself again,
i want u to live.
this will be the last u hear from me,
this will be the last u see me,
this will be the last words u read from me.
When someone ask me who Farah is, all i'll say is:
"She's sumone special"

Bye readers~ im moving to sumwhere new.
thx for backing me up when there were spammers, -_-
thx for comforting me when i was down,
thx for makin my day bright wif ure silly comments.
thx peopel~

Labels: i nvr tot it will turn out this way, such pain.